I can't get it. How could Hanna just leave me like this, like abandon me. I mean, we have been best friends since 4th grade, but friends like forever. And then she moves to Utah just for a little while, without saying goodbye or anything, just a short phone call, and then she comes home with a new bff that she is with aall the time... Tracey... Ugh I don't even want to mention her name.. She just stole my very best friend! And only friend.. God I hate her! And even more Hanna.. What's with her new attitude? I don't get her. What have I ever done to her?  

The earth is about to go under any time, the slowing just get worse and worse, and I’ve lost my best friend. If there were one thing I could have wished for before the earth goes under, is to die with my best friend. Be next to her and hold her hand. But now I have no one, and she has Tracey now.

And Seth won’t even want to talk with me anymore after I mentioned his mum, he just have said some things when it was necessary, but otherwise he keeps ignoring me. I would just shut up.

My life really sucks right now. It happens too much in such a short time. I don’t have a real answer if dad is cheating on mum with Sylvia or not, but I have my thoughts. I feel so sorry for mum. She is so exhausted, she never sleeps, she just keeps worrying about everything, and I’m wondering if she knows something about dad and Sylvia.. Poor mum.. I can’t stop being mad at dad, I really can’t. Even if I’m not 100% sure if he’s cheating or not, but I really recognized the man who was at Sylvia that night when she had gotten herself a Christmas tree. Wasn’t that dad?